Not many people are going to believe this statement but here we go.
I FEEL ALONE.
I have been marinating on those words all week. I really want to dive into what I'm feeling because I believe there are more of you out there who are feeling the same way.
I think feeling alone gets a bad rap, especially when you are surrounded by a community of people who would do ANYTHING for you, all you have to do is ask. People just assume you are ok. And you are, to a certain degree.
Let me explain.
Loneliness to me is sometimes being loved so well, but still being left with the feeling of standing completely by yourself. And to be honest, I think that's ok.
There are some things we go through in life that NO ONE will ever understand.
Things that God gives us, that are only ours. A life lesson if you may. I have had to face some really challenging things in this season of lonely. I've had to change my perspective, give grace, and remember that people, situations & loneliness only lasts for a short time.
Communities that have supported me in the past, look different now.
People fail you and then God shows up and blesses you with new people and teaches you that all humans will fall short because I too have fallen short.
My loneliness has taught me something even greater. Gratefulness.
Grateful that I have people who love me so much, they won't see this blog as an insult, but rather honor the feelings I'm processing.
Grateful that despite flawed humanness, I have eyes to find the good in some of life's messiest moments.
Grateful because some tough things have happened, but in return I've received some major, MAJOR blessings.
I just mostly hope you see that if you're in a space of feeling alone, it's ok. I give you permission to feel that way. It's not selfish. If anything it's healthy.
Acknowledge what you need.
Be brave in finding your truth.
Choose yourself and be honest with how you're feeling.
You owe it to yourself to find the clarity you need.
And most importantly, be thankful for your people.
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